The crusade has been in motion for years. Blown out speakers and loud tires on the highway. No map, no compass. Every minute is stressed to the breaking point with super-conscious anxiety. You have been trying to find the ultimate reality. You threw a hateful ultimatum at the gods and demanded an answer.
In search of the ultimate reality you wore yourself out on weird trips, misguided efforts. slept in graveyards, chased sunsets over distant hills, etc. You dragged the muck up out of the unconscious depth and then you gasped with horror and vomited when you looked at it. You did strange things even you can’t explain. You did morally questionable things. You told me you would take this as far as possible, as far as the human mind can grasp. But there was one danger you refused to consider: that your entire quest was completely and totally misguided.
So you suffered appropriately and for a long time.
But tonight something is going change. Tonight you will walk into a bedroom and find her there, having fallen asleep with her clothes on. You will pause for a moment and appreciate the scene. Standing there in the middle of the room in total silence, it will become very clear that she is the meaning. The meaning was not to be found in sacred or philosophical texts, not in temples or in an ambitious future, or in a dramatic confrontation with the void. It will be there with you in her room tonight. And it will seem impossibly simple.
In the morning you will begin to suspect that the meaning of existence is not a thing to be intellectually discovered, or sought out at all. It is not to be forced out from behind the curtain at gunpoint. Instead, you find that it was with you all along, inherent to the experience of being alive. It was sitting quietly with you while you were racking you brains for the answers to these riddles.
The meaning of existence cannot be forced out of hiding. But in time it will gently reveal itself to you.
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Hoooooly smikers. That's excellent.
ReplyDeleteBut you should have entitled it "In the 3rd"
Knowledge does not enrich us; it removes us more and more from the mythic world in which we were once at home by right of birth.
ReplyDeleteNo, knowledge does enrich us. It's not a matter of learning versus remaining ignorant. It's a matter of true knowledge versus a luciferian mirage. and Joseph just wrote his best yet
ReplyDeleteHmmm, someone misconceived the meaning of the quote entirely.
ReplyDeleteNo, i don't think i did.
ReplyDeleteIt's all about perception.
ReplyDeleteso, that brings us back to this: everyone do what they feel is right. because everything is based on how we perceive it. and we shouldn't think too much about it and just seize the dying day. right?
ReplyDeleteNo. What I meant by the quote (which isn't mine by the way) is that Joseph was searching too far for something that was there all the while. We desperately scave the Earth's crust in search of things we can find in a reflection of ourselves rippling across the surface of a vast ocean. Why? Because we think it's easier to find something by digging for it just below our feet, rather than looking for the proverbial "needle in a haystack."
ReplyDeleteAnd if you're still confused, I'll tell you what it was that Joseph wrote reminded of that (fantastical) quote.
ReplyDelete"In the morning you will begin to suspect that the meaning of existence is not a thing to be intellectually discovered, or sought out at all. It is not to be forced out from behind the curtain at gunpoint. Instead, you find that it was with you all along, inherent to the experience of being alive. It was sitting quietly with you while you were racking you brains for the answers to these riddles."