The Scream

The only reasonable sentiment today would be a frantic screech of sheer existential terror. Populations are unconscious and governments are corrupt. The latter is the natural manifestation of the former. They’re gone limp on anti-depressants and TV. People are just comfortable enough for the time being to indulge in that mental laziness that allows there to be quiet on the streets whilst their once great nation is kicked into an early grave by a few shit-sucking pigs on Wall Street and their heavies in DC. The press is on a permanent paid vacation, and even if they did show up for work no one would read the unpatriotic vitriol that’s their ethical responsibility to pump out in times like these. The news would be a perpetual litany of fuck-ups, debacles, humiliations, preacher sex scandals, crime from on high, and masses gone stupid on too much welfare stabbing each other. But there would be no response. We would all collectively skip back to the comics. It’s total apathy from a spoiled people. Let me tell you, people: America is in for something nasty and cruel, and when the shit comes down there wont be anyone else to blame.
Everyone over here is dying or dead inside already, propped up inside his or her cubicle. They are willing to be fed shit by a world they were too lazy to question. We produce and consume at a rate I can’t even comprehend, but it’s all waste. It’s all just distraction from a bigger sense of emptiness. Maybe I can’t prove objectively that there is something in my life worth living for… but I am sure as hell confident that theirs is a dead vacuum. There’s no doubt about it.
We’re making the world hotter and more toxic and even just fucking ugly at a rate of speed that boggles the mind. What was once the front range of the Rocky Mountains, I will only ever know as a strip mall projected to infinity up highway thirty-six. We’re acting like a catastrophic viral infection on this planet. We’re told we’ve gone too far and that burning fossil fuels will have DISASTROUS consequences soon, but no one is even remotely interested in this. Even the threat of disaster does not register in this rotten brain. We’ll never change until change is forced.
Our history, our civilization is a heavy stone wheel headed west and over a cliff into the grave. It’s got more mindless momentum than the few thinking people on board can ever hope to counteract. Nothing can be done, and there’s no way out. Might as well have another drink and watch it burn. Eloquent minds have been reduced to the only sincere expression still possible: hysterical mental stabbing motions.
The ugly and stupid are multiplying geometrically. The noble ones are hearing their coffin lids being nailed shut by a crude and common world that disavows them while openly stealing everything they ever accomplished. Instead of being thanked, the ones who generate progress are being quickly escorted out the back door with a hard kick in the ass. Don’t let the door hit you! Others will take the spoils and use them to their own ends until the wheels fall off and there’s no one intelligent enough left to rebuild them. New populations will rise only to find there’s not much fun left to be had. Once noble races are entering an age of senility and incontinence. There’s no time to be born again. This is no “gold in the furnace.” This is the end.
I’m done.

December 12, 2008 / City o’ City, Denver